Guilty... Scrolling through flashy images with succinct nuggets of obvious wisdom on Pinterest has, thus far, not helped me lose any weight and get healthy. Actually, the opposite is true - as I'm bigger than I've ever been in my entire life. You don't get "jacked up" on motivation. Motivation is not what I need right now - I need skills and action. I think about what I want and come up with an approach in generalities -- but lack the actual clarity of which next step to take. Lately I've been thinking about all the things I endured went we did IVF. I took pills; I ordered medicine, I made sure it arrived on time, I scheduled shots, I stuck myself with needles. I got up super early in the morning to show up at the doctors office for more poking and prodding and bad news. Over and Over for years. I kept meticulous records of protocols, results, appointments - and had it all organized in a binder. It did not work - but I followed the process. It was a foreign and challenging process. I had to learn endless acronyms, medicine types, routes of administration, not to mention the financial side of dealing with insurance, loans, and payments. So why, if I could train myself to climb that steep learning curve - why have I struggled to do the same thing with mastering my health and my weight? Is it really so different. Mustering the courage to stick myself in the ass with a giant needle is so different from mustering the courage to walk into a gym?
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