"Set them up, knock them down" seems like such an appropriate description of our journey. It also happens to be a cute catch phrase on the top of Sunnybrook Bowling Alley's webpage. (alluding to bowling pins, of course!) Check out the image below to learn about a fun bowling event in September:
I feel like John and I have been "set up" and "knocked down" so many times in our effort to bring home a baby. Each month and each cycle doing fertility treatments were certainly a roller coaster. "It has to work this time.... we're trying this new tactic." But then guess what... we got knocked down again. I don't want to rehash all that heartbreak - you can flip through past blog entries to get the gist of it. The important thing is that we are SET UPRIGHT again. We are so grateful for our friends and family who have continued to support us. We are not always "ourselves" - we're tired, stressed, sad, anxious, and probably a zillion other emotions that are hard to name.
I've thought a lot about what we've endured together, and I'm grateful for the silver lining of it all. I've found so much comfort in our church and in God, and in my bond with John. I wouldn't wish that we lost babies all over again (you know that saying, "I wouldn't change a thing..") but I can see the good parts and be happy for them. I can also look forward to getting the phone call... rushing to the hospital, sharing tears with a brave, kind, gracious birthmother, and bringing home our baby. It will happen, God has our child picked out, we're just waiting on His timing. If we do what we can, He will take care of the rest.